Stroeve hid his face in his hands and swayed backwards and forwards, groaning.

施特略夫用手捂着脸，一边前后摇晃着身体，一边呻吟。

Was she conscious?

“她那时候还有知觉吗？”

Yes. Oh, if you knew how she's suffering! I can't bear it. I can't bear it.

“有。啊，如果你知道她多么痛苦就好了。我真受不了。我真受不了。”

His voice rose to a shriek.

他的声音越来越高，成了一种尖叫。

Damn it all, you haven't got to bear it, I cried impatiently. "She's got to bear it."

“他妈的，你有什么受不了的，”我失去耐心地喊起来，“她这是自作自受。”

How can you be so cruel?

“你怎么能这么残忍呢？”

What have you done?

“你后来做什么了？”

They sent for a doctor and for me, and they told the police. I'd given the concierge twenty francs, and told her to send for me if anything happened.

“他们叫了医生，也把我找去，还报告了警察。我以前给过看门人二十法郎，告诉她如果发生了什么事就通知我。”

He paused a minute, and I saw that what he had to tell me was very hard to say.

他沉吟了一会儿，我看出来他下面要告诉我的一番话是很难启齿的。

When I went she wouldn't speak to me. She told them to send me away. I swore that I forgave her everything, but she wouldn't listen. She tried to beat her head against the wall. The doctor told me that I mustn't remain with her. She kept on saying, 'Send him away!' I went, and waited in the studio. And when the ambulance came and they put her on a stretcher, they made me go in the kitchen so that she shouldn't know I was there.

“我去了以后她不同我讲话。她告诉他们叫我走开。我向她发誓，不管她做过什么事我都原谅她，但是她根本不听我讲话。她把头往墙上撞。医生叫我不要待在她身边。她不住口地叫喊：‘叫他走开！’我只好离开她身边，在画室里等着。等救护车来了，他们把她抬上担架的时候，他们叫我躲进厨房去，让她以为我已经离开那里了。”

While I dressed—for Stroeve wished me to go at once with him to the hospital—he told me that he had arranged for his wife to have a private room, so that she might at least be spared the sordid promiscuity of a ward. On our way he explained to me why he desired my presence; if she still refused to see him, perhaps she would see me. He begged me to repeat to her that he loved her still; he would reproach her for nothing, but desired only to help her; he made no claim on her, and on her recovery would not seek to induce her to return to him; she would be perfectly free.

在我穿衣服的当儿——因为施特略夫要我立刻同他一起到医院去——，他告诉我他已经在医院为他的妻子安排了一个单间病室，免得她住在人群混杂、空气污浊的大病房。走在路上的时候他又向我解释，为什么他要我陪他去——如果她仍然拒绝同他见面，也许她愿意见我。他求我转告她，他仍然爱她，他丝毫也不责怪她，只希望能帮她一点儿忙。他对她没有任何要求，在她病好以后决不劝说她回到自己身边，她是绝对自由的。