I want to read, this morning, from...
我今天早上想读的内容，是...
No.
不
You know what no one wants to talk about.
有一个话题人人回避
Hate.
恨
I know all about hate.
我非常了解恨
It starts in your gut,
它在你腹中酝酿
deep down here,
在你体内深处
where it stirs and churns.
搅动翻腾
And then it rises.
接着它涌起
Hate rises fast and volcanic.
恨意猛烈而迅猛地上升
It erupts hot on the breath.
令人冲口而出激动的话语
Your eyes go wide with fire.
你怒目圆睁，充满怒火
You clench your teeth so hard
你咬紧牙关
you think they'll shatter.
简直要咬碎牙齿
I hate you, God. I hate you!
我恨你，上帝，我恨你
Oh, don't tell me you haven't said those words before.
别说你们从没说过这句话
I know you have.
我知道你们说过
We all have,
我们都说过
if you've ever felt so crushing a loss.
只要你曾经历如此沉痛的打击
There are two parents with us today
今天在座有一对父母
who know that pain,
他们了解这种痛苦
the most terrible hurt of all
最沉重的伤痛，莫过于
losing a child before her time.
失去一个尚年轻的孩子
If Dean and Leanne were to stand up right now
如果迪恩和莉安现在站起来
and scream those awful words of hate,
吼出那些充满恨意的可怕词句
could we blame them?
我们能责怪他们吗
I couldn't.
我做不到
At least their hatred I can understand.
至少我能理解他们心中的恨
I can grasp it,
我能体会
but God's wantonness,
但上帝的无常
his cruelty,
冷酷无情
I can't even begin to
我甚至不能...
My father dropped dead of a heart attack
我的父亲因心脏病猝死
at the age of 43 43 years old
年仅43岁 43岁
and when he died, I looked up to God
当他离开时，我仰望上苍
and I said those words,
说了这些话
because my father was so young,
因为我父亲还如此年轻
so full of life, so full of dreams.
如此精力充沛，满怀梦想
Why would God take him from us?
为什么上帝要把他夺走
Truth be told I never really knew him
其实，我并不了解他
or what his dreams were.
也不知道他的梦想
He was quiet, timid, almost invisible.
他沉默，胆小，没 人在意他
My mother didn't think much of him.
我的母亲瞧不起他
My mother's mother hated him.
我外婆讨厌他
The man never scratched the surface of life.
他根本从未真正地活过
Maybe it's best he died so young.
也许他早逝是件好事
He wasn't doing much but taking up space.
他没什么贡献，只是占地方罢了
But that doesn't make for a very powerful eulogy, now, does it?
但这样的悼词哪有震撼力，是不是
I wept. I screamed, "Why, God?
我流泪，我哭喊 "为什么，上帝"
How can I not hate you
我怎能不恨你
when you steal from me the person I most love
你从我身边偷走了这个世界上
and admire in this world?
我最爱最崇敬的人
I don't understand it, and I hate you for it.
我无法理解，并为此恨你
The Bible says in proverbs,
《圣经:箴言篇》中写道
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart
"你要专心仰赖耶和华
and lean not on your own understanding."
不可倚靠自己的聪明"
Lean not on your own understanding.
不可倚靠自己的聪明
God is telling us to trust him,
上帝告诫我们无条件信任他
to love him despite our own ignorance.
尽管我们无知，仍要爱他
