The results of the college entrance examinatiun came. I tore open the envelope. As soon as I saw the score, tears streamed down my face. I fell into my bed and did not get up the whole day.All was over. What is the meaning to live on earth? For the first time I thought of death, of being a vagrant and of being single all my life.I was only seventeen. Wasn't it cruel to me? My father was hurt and he could not stand it, that his son was a disgrace. He was angry beyond words.My mother kept silent, and often I saw her in tears.Horror filled the house.

　　高考分数下来了，我拆开信封一看，顿时泪流满面，一头扑到床上，整整一天都没起床。一切都完了，人活在世上还有什么意思? 这时，我第1次想到死，想到了去当流浪汉，也想到了终生独身。可那年我才17岁，这一切想法对我不是太残酷了吗?我的父亲深感受了伤害，他不能容忍自己的儿子为他丢人现眼，怒不可遏。我母亲则默不出声，经常以泪洗面。家中一片恐怖。