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Jane

I remember very well the occasion on which I first saw Jane Fowler. It is indeed only because the details of the glimpse I had of her then are so clear that I trust my recollection at all, for, looking back, I must confess that I find it hard to believe that it has not played me a fantastic trick. I had lately returned to London from China and was drinking a dish of tea with Mrs. Tower. Mrs. Tower had been seized with the prevailing passion for decoration; and with the ruthlessness of her sex had sacrificed chairs in which she had comfortably sat for years, tables, cabinets, ornaments on which her eyes had dwelt in peace since she was married, pictures that had been familiar to her for a generation; and delivered herself into the hands of an expert. Nothing remained in her drawing-room with which she had any association, or to which any sentiment was attached; and she had invited me that day to see the fashionable glory in which she now lived. Everything that could be pickled was pickled and what couldn't be pickled was painted. Nothing matched, but everything harmonized.

Do you remember that ridiculous drawing-room suite that I used to have? asked Mrs. Tower.

The curtains were sumptuous yet severe; the sofa was covered with Italian brocade; the chair on which I sat was in petit point. The room was beautiful, opulent without garishness, and original without affectation; yet to me it lacked something; and while I praised with my lips I asked myself why I so much preferred the rather shabby chintz of the despised suite, the Victorian watercolours that I had known so long, and the ridiculous Dresden china that had adorned the chimney-piece. I wondered what it was that I missed in all these rooms that the decorators were turning out with a profitable industry. Was it heart? But Mrs. Tower looked about her happily.

Don't you like my alabaster lamps? she said. "They give such a soft light."

Personally I have a weakness for a light that you can see by, I smiled.

It's so difficult to combine that with a light that you can't be too much seen by, laughed Mrs. Tower.

I had no notion what her age was. When I was quite a young man she was a married woman a good deal older than I, but now she treated me as her contemporary. She constantly said that she made no secret of her age, which was forty, and then added with a smile that all women took five years off. She never sought to conceal the fact that she dyed her hair (it was a very pretty brown with reddish tints), and she said she did this because hair was hideous while it was going grey; as soon as hers was white she would cease to dye it.

Then they'll say what a young face I have.

Meanwhile it was painted, though with discretion, and her eyes owed not a little of their vivacity to art. She was a handsome woman, exquisitely gowned, and in the sombre glow of the alabaster lamps did not look a day more than the forty she gave herself.

It is only at my dressing-table that I can suffer the naked brightness of a thirty-two-candle electric bulb, she added with smiling cynicism. "There I need it to tell me the first hideous truth and then to enable me to take the necessary steps to correct it."

We gossiped pleasantly about our common friends and Mrs. Tower brought me up to date in the scandal of the day. After roughing it here and there it was very agreeable to sit in a comfortable chair, the fire burning brightly on the hearth, charming tea-things set out on a charming table, and talk with this amusing, attractive woman. She treated me as a prodigal returned from his husks and was disposed to make much of me. She prided herself on her dinnerparties; she took no less trouble to have her guests suitably assorted than to give them excellent food; and there were few persons who did not look upon it as a treat to be bidden to one of them. Now she fixed a date and asked me whom I would like to meet.

There's only one thing I must tell you. If Jane Fowler is still here I shall have to put it off.

Who is Jane Fowler? I asked.

Mrs. Tower gave a rueful smile.

Jane Fowler is my cross.

Oh!

Do you remember a photograph that I used to have on the piano before I had my room done, of a woman in a tight dress with tight sleeves and a gold locket, with her hair drawn back from a broad forehead and her ears showing and spectacles on a rather blunt nose? Well, that was Jane Fowler.

You had so many photographs about the room in your unregenerate days, I said, vaguely.

It makes me shudder to think of them. I've made them into a huge brown-paper parcel and hidden them in an attic

Well, who is Jane Fowler? I asked again, smiling.

She's my sister-in-law. She was my husband's sister and she married a manufacturer in the North. She's been a widow for many years, and she's very well-to-do.

And why is she your cross?

She's worthy, she's dowdy, she's provincial. She looks twenty years older than I do and she's quite capable of telling anyone she meets that we were at school together. She has an overwhelming sense of family affection and because I am her only living connexion she's devoted to me. When she comes to London it never occurs to her that she should stay anywhere but here—she thinks it would hurt my feelings—and she'll pay me visits of three or four weeks. We sit here and she knits and reads. And sometimes she insists on taking me to dine at Claridge's and she looks like a funny old charwoman and everyone I particularly don't want to be seen by is sitting at the next table. When we are driving home she says she loves giving me a little treat. With her own hands she makes me tea-cosies that I am forced to use when she is here and doilies and centrepieces for the dining-room table.

Mrs. Tower paused to take breath.

I should have thought a woman of your tact would find a way to deal with a situation like that.

Ah, but don't you see, I haven't a chance. She's so immeasurably kind. She has a heart of gold. She bores me to death, but I wouldn't for anything let her suspect it.

And when does she arrive?

Tomorrow.

But the answer was hardly out of Mrs. Tower's mouth when the bell rang. There were sounds in the hall of a slight commotion and in a minute or two the butler ushered in an elderly lady.

Mrs. Fowler, he announced.

Jane, cried Mrs. Tower, springing to her feet. "I wasn't expecting you today."

So your butler has just told me. I certainly said today in my letter.

Mrs. Tower recovered her wits.

Well, it doesn't matter. I'm very glad to see you whenever you come. Fortunately I'm doing nothing this evening.

You mustn't let me give you any trouble. If I can have a boiled egg for my dinner, that's all I shall want.

A faint grimace for a moment distorted Mrs. Tower's handsome features. A boiled egg!

Oh, I think we can do a little better than that.

I chuckled inwardly when I recollected that the two ladies were contemporaries. Mrs. Fowler looked a good fifty-five. She was a rather big woman; she wore a black straw hat with a wide brim and from it a black lace veil hung over her shoulders, a cloak that oddly combined severity with fussiness, a long black dress, voluminous as though she wore several petticoats under it, and stout boots. She was evidently short-sighted, for she looked at you through large gold-rimmed spectacles.

Won't you have a cup of tea? asked Mrs. Tower.

If it wouldn't be too much trouble. I'll take off my mantle.

She began by stripping her hands of the black gloves she wore, and then took off her cloak. Round her neck was a solid gold chain from which hung a large gold locket in which I felt certain was a photograph of her deceased husband. Then she took off her hat and placed it neatly with her gloves and cloak on the sofa corner. Mrs. Tower pursed her lips. Certainly those garments did not go very well with the austere but sumptuous beauty of Mrs. Tower's redecorated drawing-room. I wondered where on earth Mrs. Fowler had found the extraordinary clothes she wore. They were not old and the materials were expensive. It was astounding to think that dressmakers still made things that had not been worn for a quarter of a century. Mrs. Fowler's grey hair was very plainly done, showing all her forehead and her ears, with a parting in the middle. It had evidently never known the tongs of Monsieur Marcel. Now her eyes fell on the tea-table with its teapot of Georgian silver and its cups in Old Worcester.

What have you done with the tea-cosy I gave you last time I came up, Marion? she asked. "Don't you use it?"

Yes, I used it every day, Jane, answered Mrs. Tower glibly. "Unfortunately we had an accident with it a little while ago. It got burnt."

But the last one I gave you got burnt.

I'm afraid you'll think us very careless.

It doesn't really matter, smiled Mrs. Fowler. "I shall enjoy making you another. I'll go to Liberty's tomorrow and buy some silks."

Mrs. Tower kept her face bravely.

I don't deserve it, you know. Doesn't your vicar's wife need one?

Oh, I've just made her one, said Mrs. Fowler brightly.

I noticed that when she smiled she showed white, small, and regular teeth. They were a real beauty. Her smile was certainly very sweet.

But I felt it high time for me to leave the two ladies to themselves, so I took my leave.

Early next morning Mrs. Tower rang me up and I heard at once from her voice that she was in high spirits.

I've got the most wonderful news for you, she said. "Jane is going to be married."

Nonsense.

Her fiancé is coming to dine here tonight to be introduced to me and I want you to come too.

Oh, but I shall be in the way.

No, you won't. Jane suggested herself that I should ask you. Do come.

She was bubbling over with laughter.

Who is he?

I don't know. She tells me he's an architect. Can you imagine the sort of man Jane would marry?

I had nothing to do and I could trust Mrs. Tower to give me a good dinner.

When I arrived Mrs. Tower, very splendid in a tea-gown a little too young for her, was alone.

Jane is putting the finishing touches to her appearance. I'm longing for you to see her. She's all in a flutter. She says he adores her. His name is Gilbert and when she speaks of him her voice gets all funny and tremulous. It makes me want to laugh.

I wonder what he's like.

Oh, I'm sure I know. Very big and massive, with a bald head and an immense gold chain across an immense tummy. A large, fat, clean-shaven, red face and a booming voice.

Mrs. Fowler came in. She wore a very stiff black silk dress with a wide skirt and a train. At the neck it was cut into a timid V and the sleeves came down to the elbows. She wore a necklace of diamonds set in silver. She carried in her hands a long pair of black gloves and a fan of black ostrich feathers. She managed (as so few people do) to look exactly what she was. You could never have thought her anything in the world but the respectable relict of a North-country manufacturer of ample means.

You've really got quite a pretty neck, Jane, said Mrs. Tower with a kindly smile.

It was indeed astonishingly young when you compared it with her weather-beaten face. It was smooth and unlined and the skin was white. And I noticed then that her head was very well placed on her shoulders.

Has Marion told you my news? she said, turning to me with that really charming smile of hers as if we were already old friends.

I must congratulate you, I said.

Wait to do that till you've seen my young man.

I think it's too sweet to hear you talk of your young man, smiled Mrs. Tower.

Mrs. Fowler's eyes certainly twinkled behind her preposterous spectacles.

Don't expect anyone too old. You wouldn't like me to marry a decrepit old gentleman with one foot in the grave, would you?

This was the only warning she gave us. Indeed there was no time for any further discussion, for the butler flung open the door and in a loud voice announced:

Mr. Gilbert Napier.

There entered a youth in a very well-cut dinner jacket. He was slight, not very tall, with fair hair in which there was a hint of a natural wave, cleanshaven, and blue-eyed. He was not particularly good-looking, but he had a pleasant, amiable face. In ten years he would probably be wizened and sallow; but now, in extreme youth, he was fresh and clean and blooming. For he was certainly not more than twenty-four. My first thought was that this was the son of Jane Fowler's fiancé (I had not known he was a widower) come to say that his father was prevented from dining by a sudden attack of gout. But his eyes fell immediately on Mrs. Fowler, his face lit up, and he went towards her with both hands outstretched. Mrs. Fowler gave him hers, a demure smile on her lips, and turned to her sister-in-law.

This is my young man, Marion, she said.

He held out his hand.

I hope you'll like me, Mrs. Tower, he said. "Jane tells me you're the only relation she has in the world."

Mrs. Tower's face was wonderful to behold. I saw then to admiration how bravely good breeding and social usage could combat the instincts of the natural woman. For the astonishment and then the dismay that for an instant she could not conceal were quickly driven away, and her face assumed an expression of affable welcome. But she was evidently at a loss for words. It was not unnatural if Gilbert felt a certain embarrassment and I was too busy preventing myself from laughing to think of anything to say. Mrs. Fowler alone kept perfectly calm.

I know you'll like him, Marion. There's no one enjoys good food more than he does. She turned to the young man. "Marion's dinners are famous."

I know, he beamed.

Mrs. Tower made some quick rejoinder and we went downstairs. I shall not soon forget the exquisite comedy of that meal. Mrs. Tower could not make up her mind whether the pair of them were playing a practical joke on her or whether Jane by wilfully concealing her fiancé's age had hoped to make her look foolish. But then Jane never jested and she was incapable of doing a malicious thing. Mrs. Tower was amazed, exasperated, and perplexed. But she had recovered her self-control, and for nothing would she have forgotten that she was a perfect hostess whose duty it was to make her party go. She talked vivaciously; but I wondered if Gilbert Napier saw how hard and vindictive was the expression of her eyes behind the mask of friendliness that she turned to him. She was measuring him. She was seeking to delve into the secret of his soul. I could see that she was in a passion, for under her rouge her cheeks glowed with an angry red.

You've got a very high colour, Marion, said Jane, looking at her amiably through her great round spectacles.

I dressed in a hurry. I dare say I put on too much rouge.

Oh, is it rouge? I thought it was natural. Otherwise I shouldn't have mentioned it. She gave Gilbert a shy little smile. "You know, Marion and I were at school together. You would never think it to look at us now, would you? But of course I've lived a very quiet life."

I do not know what she meant by these remarks; it was almost incredible that she made them in complete simplicity; but anyhow they goaded Mrs. Tower to such a fury that she flung her own vanity to the winds. She smiled brightly.

We shall neither of us see fifty again, Jane, she said.

If the observation was meant to discomfit the widow it failed.

Gilbert says I mustn't acknowledge to more than forty-nine for his sake, she answered blandly.

Mrs. Tower's hands trembled slightly, but she found a retort.

There is of course a certain disparity of age between you, she smiled.

Twenty-seven years, said Jane. "Do you think it's too much? Gilbert says I'm very young for my age. I told you I shouldn't like to marry a man with one foot in the grave."

I was really obliged to laugh and Gilbert laughed too. His laughter was frank and boyish. It looked as though he were amused at everything Jane said. But Mrs. Tower was almost at the end of her tether and I was afraid that unless relief came she would for once forget that she was a woman of the world. I came to the rescue as best I could.

I suppose you're very busy buying your trousseau, I said.

No. I wanted to get my things from the dressmaker in Liverpool I've been to ever since I was first married. But Gilbert won't let me. He's very masterful, and of course he has wonderful taste.

She looked at him with a little affectionate smile, demurely, as though she were a girl of seventeen.

Mrs. Tower went quite pale under her make-up.

We're going to Italy for our honeymoon. Gilbert has never had a chance of studying Renaissance architecture and of course it's important for an architect to see things for himself. And we shall stop in Paris on the way and get my clothes there.

Do you expect to be away long?

Gilbert has arranged with his office to stay away for six months. It will be such a treat for him, won't it? You see, he's never had more than a fortnight's holiday before.

Why not? asked Mrs. Tower in a tone that no effort of will could prevent from being icy.

He's never been able to afford it, poor dear.

Ah! said Mrs. Tower, and into the exclamation put volumes.

Coffee was served and the ladies went upstairs. Gilbert and I began to talk in the desultory way in which men talk who have nothing whatever to say to one another; but in two minutes a note was brought in to me by the butler. It was from Mrs. Tower and ran as follows:

Come upstairs quickly and then go as soon as you can. Take him with you. Unless I have it out with Jane at once I shall have a fit.

I told a facile lie.

Mrs. Tower has a headache and wants to go to bed. I think if you don't mind we'd better clear out.

Certainly, he answered.

We went upstairs and five minutes later were on the doorstep. I called a taxi and offered the young man a lift.

No, thanks, he answered. "I'll just walk to the corner and jump on a bus."

Mrs. Tower sprang to the fray as soon as she heard the front door close behind us.

Are you crazy, Jane? she cried.

Not more than most people who don't habitually live in a lunatic asylum, I trust, Jane answered blandly.

May I ask why you're going to marry this young man? asked Mrs. Tower with formidable politeness.

Partly because he won't take no for an answer. He's asked me five times. I grew positively tired of refusing him.

And why do you think he's so anxious to marry you?

I amuse him.

Mrs. Tower gave an exclamation of annoyance.

He's an unscrupulous rascal. I very nearly told him so to his face.

You would have been wrong, and it wouldn't have been very polite.

He's penniless and you're rich. You can't be such a besotted fool as not to see that he's marrying you for your money.

Jane remained perfectly composed. She observed her sister-in-law's agitation with detachment.

I don't think he is, you know, she replied. "I think he's very fond of me."

You're an old woman, Jane.

I'm the same age as you are, Marion, she smiled.

I've never let myself go. I'm very young for my age. No one would think I was more than forty. But even I wouldn't dream of marrying a boy twenty years younger than myself.

Twenty-seven, corrected Jane.

Do you mean to tell me that you can bring yourself to believe that it's possible for a young man to care for a woman old enough to be his mother?

I've lived very much in the country for many years. I dare say there's a great deal about human nature that I don't know. They tell me there's a man called Freud, an Austrian, I believe . . .

But Mrs. Tower interrupted her without any politeness at all.

Don't be ridiculous, Jane. It's so undignified. It's so ungraceful. I always thought you were a sensible woman. Really you're the last person I should ever have thought likely to fall in love with a boy.

But I'm not in love with him. I've told him that. Of course I like him very much or I wouldn't think of marrying him. I thought it only fair to tell him quite plainly what my feelings were towards him.

Mrs. Tower gasped. The blood rushed to her head and her breathing oppressed her. She had no fan, but she seized the evening paper and vigorously fanned herself with it.

If you're not in love with him why do you want to marry him?

I've been a widow a very long time and I've led a very quiet life. I thought I'd like a change.

If you want to marry just to be married why don't you marry a man of your own age?

No man of my own age has asked me five times. In fact no man of my own age has asked me at all.

Jane chuckled as she answered. It drove Mrs. Tower to the final pitch of frenzy.

Don't laugh, Jane, I won't have it. I don't think you can be right in your mind. It's dreadful.

It was altogether too much for her and she burst into tears. She knew that at her age it was fatal to cry, her eyes would be swollen for twenty-four hours and she would look a sight. But there was no help for it. She wept. Jane remained perfectly calm. She looked at Marion through her large spectacles and reflectively smoothed the lap of her black silk dress.

You're going to be so dreadfully unhappy, Mrs. Tower sobbed, dabbing her eyes cautiously in the hope that the black on her lashes would not smudge.

I don't think so, you know, Jane answered in those equable, mild tones of hers, as if there were a little smile behind the words. "We've talked it over very thoroughly. I always think I'm a very easy person to live with. I think I shall make Gilbert very happy and comfortable. He's never had anyone to look after him properly. We're only marrying after mature consideration. And we've decided that if either of us wants his liberty the other will place no obstacles in the way of his getting it."

Mrs. Tower had by now recovered herself sufficiently to make a cutting remark.

How much has he persuaded you to settle on him?

I wanted to settle a thousand a year on him, but he wouldn't hear of it. He was quite upset when I made the suggestion. He says he can earn quite enough for his own needs.

He's more cunning than I thought, said Mrs. Tower acidly.

Jane paused a little and looked at her sister-in-law with kindly but resolute eyes.

You see, my dear, it's different for you, she said. "You've never been so very much a widow, have you?"

Mrs. Tower looked at her. She blushed a little. She even felt slightly uncomfortable. But of course Jane was much too simple to intend an innuendo. Mrs. Tower gathered herself together with dignity.

I'm so upset that I really must go to bed, she said. "We'll resume the conversation tomorrow morning."

I'm afraid that won't be very convenient, dear. Gilbert and I are going to get the licence tomorrow morning.

Mrs. Tower threw up her hands in a gesture of dismay, but she found nothing more to say.

The marriage took place at a registrar's office. Mrs. Tower and I were the witnesses. Gilbert in a smart blue suit looked absurdly young and he was obviously nervous. It is a trying moment for any man. But Jane kept her admirable composure. She might have been in the habit of marrying as frequently as a woman of fashion. Only a slight colour on her cheeks suggested that beneath her calm was some faint excitement. It is a thrilling moment for any woman. She wore a very full dress of silvery grey velvet in the cut of which I recognized the hand of the dressmaker in Liverpool (evidently a widow of unimpeachable character) who had made her gowns for so many years; but she had so far succumbed to the frivolity of the occasion as to wear a large picture hat covered with blue ostrich feathers. Her gold-rimmed spectacles made it extraordinarily grotesque.

When the ceremony was over the registrar (somewhat taken aback, I thought, by the difference of age between the pair he was marrying) shook hands with her, tendering his strictly official congratulations; and the bridegroom, blushing slightly, kissed her. Mrs. Tower, resigned but implacable, kissed her; and then the bride looked at me expectantly. It was evidently fitting that I should kiss her too. I did. I confess that I felt a little shy as we walked out of the registrar's office past loungers who waited cynically to see the bridal pairs, and it was with relief that I stepped into Mrs. Tower's car. We drove to Victoria Station, for the happy couple were to go over to Paris by the two o'clock train, and Jane had insisted that the wedding-breakfast should be eaten at the station restaurant. She said it always made her nervous not to be on the platform in good time. Mrs. Tower, present only from a strong sense of family duty, was able to do little to make the party go off well; she ate nothing (for which I could not blame her, since the food was execrable, and anyway I hate champagne at luncheon) and talked in a strained voice. But Jane went through the menu conscientiously.

I always think one should make a hearty meal before starting out on a journey, she said.

We saw them off, and I drove Mrs. Tower back to her house.

How long do you give it? she said. "Six months?"

Let's hope for the best, I smiled.

Don't be so absurd. There can be no 'best'. You don't think he's marrying her for anything but her money, do you? Of course it can't last. My only hope is that she won't have to go through as much suffering as she deserves.

I laughed. The charitable words were spoken in such a tone as to leave me in small doubt of Mrs. Tower's meaning.

Well, if it doesn't last you'll have the consolation of saying: 'I told you so,' I said.

I promise you I'll never do that.

Then you'll have the satisfaction of congratulating yourself on your self-control in not saying: 'I told you so.'

She's old and dowdy and dull.

Are you sure she's dull? I said. "It's true she doesn't say very much, but when she says anything it's very much to the point."

I've never heard her make a joke in my life.

I was once more in the Far East when Gilbert and Jane returned from their honeymoon and this time I remained away for nearly two years. Mrs. Tower was a bad correspondent and though I sent her an occasional picture-postcard I received no news from her. But I met her within a week of my return to London; I was dining out and found that I was seated next to her. It was an immense party, I think we were four-and-twenty, like the blackbirds in the pie, and, arriving somewhat late, I was too confused by the crowd in which I found myself to notice who was there. But when we sat down, looking round the long table I saw that a good many of my fellow-guests were well known to the public from their photographs in the illustrated papers. Our hostess had a weakness for the persons technically known as celebrities and this was an unusually brilliant gathering.

When Mrs. Tower and I had exchanged the conventional remarks that two people make when they have not seen one another for a couple of years I asked about Jane.

She's very well, said Mrs. Tower with a certain dryness.

How has the marriage turned out?

Mrs. Tower paused a little and took a salted almond from the dish in front of her.

It appears to be quite a success.

You were wrong then?

I said it wouldn't last and I still say it won't last. It's contrary to human nature.

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