I leaned forward on the table, resting my chin on myfolded arms, my hidden fingers gripping the table'sedge as I fought to ignore the irrational longing thatunsettled me. I didn't look at him, afraid that if hewas looking at me, it would only make self-controlthat much harder. I sincerely tried to watch themovie, but at the end of the hour I had no idea whatI'd just seen. I sighed in relief again when Mr.Bannerturned the lights on, finally glancing at Edward; he was looking at me, his eyes ambivalent.

我向桌子倾下身去，把下颚放在交叠的小臂上，我隐藏起来的手指紧紧地抓住桌子的边缘。我挣扎着不去理会那股试图让我动摇的不合情理的渴望。我不敢看他，生怕他也在看着我，这只会让自我控制变得更难些。我由衷地想要看这部电影，但直到这堂课结束我还是不知道我刚刚看的是什么内容。当班纳老师把灯打开的时候，我宽慰地叹了口气，终于看了一眼爱德华。他正看着我，眼里写满了矛盾。

He rose in silence and then stood still, waiting for me. We walked toward the gym in silence, likeyesterday. And, also like yesterday, he touched my face wordlessly — this time with the back ofhis cool hand, stroking once from my temple to my jaw — before he turned and walked away.

他默默地站起身，一动不动地站在那里，等着我。我们沉默着向体育馆走去，和昨天完全一样。然后，还是和昨天一样，他无言地轻抚我的脸庞——这次是用他冰冷的手背，从我的一侧眉毛一直抚摸到我的下颌——在他转身走开以前。

Gym passed quickly as I watched Mike's one-man badminton show. He didn't speak to metoday, either in response to my vacant expression or because he was still angry about oursquabble yesterday. Somewhere, in a corner of my mind, I felt bad about that. But I couldn'tconcentrate on him.

体育课在我观看迈克的羽毛球个人秀中很快就过去了。他今天没有跟我说话，也没有对我空白的表情作出任何反应，也许他还在为我们昨天的口角生着闷气。在我心底一角的某处，我对此感觉很糟。但我没法把注意力集中在他身上。

I hurried to change afterward, ill at ease, knowing the faster I moved, the sooner I would bewith Edward. The pressure made me more clumsy than usual, but eventually I made it out thedoor, feeling the same release when I saw him standing there, a wide smile automaticallyspreading across my face. He smiled in reaction before launching into more cross-examination.

之后，我不安地赶去换衣服，知道我的动作越快，我就能越早和爱德华待在一起。这种压迫感使得我比平时还有笨手笨脚，但最终我冲出门口，和上次一样宽慰地看到他站在那里，一个大大的笑容下意识地浮现在我脸上。作为回应，他微笑起来，然后开始新一轮狂热的交互讯问。