sometimes i can be so stupid. last night i went out with anna again and it was a crazy night. i haven't really talked to her since brunch last sunday and i have been feeling a little bit bad for about avoiding her. all she can talk about is this guy she is seeing and i don't like talking about him.

觉得自己有时候好像很笨。我昨晚又和安娜出去，结果差点疯掉。自从上星期天的早午餐事件后，我就没和她说什么话了。老是躲着她，心里也不是很舒服;她老在谈目前交往的这个男友，而我又不喜欢谈他。

but when she called i thought that i should at least try to stop feeling jealous of her happiness(if that's really what my dislike of him is about). and i had no other plans, so i thought “what the heck”. if he is that important to her, i will try to like him. that's what friend do, right?

不过她打电话来时，我想说自己起码可以试着不要再嫉妒她的幸福(如果我不喜欢她男友真的是因为这样的话)，而且我也没别的事，心想“管他呢”。如果他真对她那么重要，我会设法喜欢他，朋友不就应该这样做吗?