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OBSTINATE are the trammels, but my heart aches when I try to break them.

Freedom is all I want, but to hope for it I feel ashamed.

I am certain that priceless wealth is in thee, and that thou art my best friend, but I have not the heart to sweep away the tinsel that fills my room.

The shroud that covers me is a shroud of dust and death; I hate it, yet hug it in love.

My debts are large, my failures great, my shame secret and heavy; yet when I come to ask for my good, I quake in fear lest my prayer be granted.

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罗网是坚韧的，但是要撕破它的时候我又心痛。

我只要自由，为希望自由我却觉得羞愧。

我确知那无价之宝是在你那里，

而且你是我最好的朋友，但我却舍不得清除我满屋的俗物。

我身上披的是尘灰与死亡之衣；

我恨它，却又热爱地把它抱紧。

我的负债很多，我的失败很大，我的耻辱秘密而又深重；

但当我来求福的时候，我又战栗，唯恐我的祈求得到允诺。