The first letter
第一封信
Dear Catherine:
亲爱的凯瑟琳：
I'm sorry I haven't talked to you in so long. I feel I've been lost, no bearings, no compass. I kept crashing into things, a little crazy, I guess. I've never been lost before. You were my true north. I could always steer for home when you were my home. Forgive me for being so angry when you left. I still think some mistake's been made and I'm waiting for God to take it back. But I'm doing better now. The work helps me. Most of all, you help me. You came into my dream last night with that smile that always held the like a lover, rocked me like a child. All I remember from the dream is a feeling of peace. I woke up with that feeling and tried to keep it alive as long as I could. I'm writing to tell you that I'm on a journey toward that peace. And to tell you I'm sorry about so many things. I'm sorry I didn' t take better care of you so that you never spent one minute being cold or scared or sick. I'm sorry I didn' t try harder to find the words to tell you what I was feeling. I'm sorry I never fixed the screen door. I fixed it now. I'm sorry I ever fought with you. I'm sorry I didn' t apologize more. I was too proud. I'm sorry I didn't bring you more complement on everything you wore and every way you fixed your hair. I'm sorry I didn't hold on to you with so much strength that even God couldn't pull you away.
对不起，这么长时间没和你聊一聊。我感觉自己迷失了，找不到方向了，也不有人指路。我东撞西撞，不知所措。我从未这样过，你曾经是我的方向。你就是我的家，只要有你，我总能找到回家的咱。原谅我，在你离开时，我愤怒极了。 我仍然觉得，是上帝弄错了。我一直等着一切可以重来!现在，我已经好多了。工作帮且了我，最重要的是，你帮助了我。昨晚，你着微笑进入我的梦中，像爱人般地拥抱我，轻轻地像摇孩子般地摇着我。梦中，一切都无比的宁静。醒来时，依然可以感觉到这份宁静，真想永远拥有这样的感觉我想告诉你，我正启程前往那片宁静。我还想告诉你，我为很多事情感到后悔。后悔没有更好地照顾你，而让你时刻受冻，担惊，生病。原谅我，没再费心找到合适的语言，表达我的感受。原谅我，一直没把屏风修好。现在，已经修好了。原谅我，曾经和你吵架。原谅我，没再跟你道歉。我太骄傲了。原谅我，没用更美的语言赞美你——你每天的衣服，你每天的发型。原谅我，没有更紧地抱着你，而让上帝把你带走了。
All my love, G
爱你的人，G
第一封信
Dear Catherine:
亲爱的凯瑟琳：
I'm sorry I haven't talked to you in so long. I feel I've been lost, no bearings, no compass. I kept crashing into things, a little crazy, I guess. I've never been lost before. You were my true north. I could always steer for home when you were my home. Forgive me for being so angry when you left. I still think some mistake's been made and I'm waiting for God to take it back. But I'm doing better now. The work helps me. Most of all, you help me. You came into my dream last night with that smile that always held the like a lover, rocked me like a child. All I remember from the dream is a feeling of peace. I woke up with that feeling and tried to keep it alive as long as I could. I'm writing to tell you that I'm on a journey toward that peace. And to tell you I'm sorry about so many things. I'm sorry I didn' t take better care of you so that you never spent one minute being cold or scared or sick. I'm sorry I didn' t try harder to find the words to tell you what I was feeling. I'm sorry I never fixed the screen door. I fixed it now. I'm sorry I ever fought with you. I'm sorry I didn' t apologize more. I was too proud. I'm sorry I didn't bring you more complement on everything you wore and every way you fixed your hair. I'm sorry I didn't hold on to you with so much strength that even God couldn't pull you away.
对不起，这么长时间没和你聊一聊。我感觉自己迷失了，找不到方向了，也不有人指路。我东撞西撞，不知所措。我从未这样过，你曾经是我的方向。你就是我的家，只要有你，我总能找到回家的咱。原谅我，在你离开时，我愤怒极了。 我仍然觉得，是上帝弄错了。我一直等着一切可以重来!现在，我已经好多了。工作帮且了我，最重要的是，你帮助了我。昨晚，你着微笑进入我的梦中，像爱人般地拥抱我，轻轻地像摇孩子般地摇着我。梦中，一切都无比的宁静。醒来时，依然可以感觉到这份宁静，真想永远拥有这样的感觉我想告诉你，我正启程前往那片宁静。我还想告诉你，我为很多事情感到后悔。后悔没有更好地照顾你，而让你时刻受冻，担惊，生病。原谅我，没再费心找到合适的语言，表达我的感受。原谅我，一直没把屏风修好。现在，已经修好了。原谅我，曾经和你吵架。原谅我，没再跟你道歉。我太骄傲了。原谅我，没用更美的语言赞美你——你每天的衣服，你每天的发型。原谅我，没有更紧地抱着你，而让上帝把你带走了。
All my love, G
爱你的人，G
